Sianzation

This is the time for me…. Gonna be off soon, reli soon. The main paper for me will start from 20 Feb….. Total got 4 papers… Stress… Alot of things to memorise lors…. Hmmm…. Sianz Sianz sianz…. Just coming here to talk shit liddat lah… Nothing else liao…. BB….

This is the time for me…. Gonna be off soon, reli soon. The main paper for me will start from 20 Feb….. Total got 4 papers… Stress… Alot of things to memorise lors…. Hmmm…. Sianz Sianz sianz…. Just coming here to talk shit liddat lah… Nothing else liao…. BB….

Finally, I’m here to update liao…. Hmmm, projects and projects and projects were taking off my time lately. Even during CNY still gotta rush for projects. It’s not that we doing last min but is just that the info that the lecturers gave were not enough. Researches gotta be done. Projects talk later.

During CNY, it was my very first time doing this. Yes!! First time! OK nothing la… Is went to pray my Grandmother also to wish her HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR… The first time thingy was actually my first time wishing my Grandmother and Grandfather during CNY.. Cool rites? Hahax… But was in front of their urns la… Was kinda sad as that was also the first time that I actually never have the chance to say it to my Grandmother face to face. The happiness during CNY were not like before le… After praying, went home to prepare to go my foster grandma there. Yes, went there without oranges as this yr can’t use oranges to bai nian. Kinda weird feeling but nvm, only for this yr lors…. Then go ppl’s hse also nv bring oranges. Ya, then this yr’s ang bao dropped alot lors… Due to my aunties they are wanna run away from it la… They can give de but chose not to… hmmm…. then play play blackjack lose like siao lors… hmmm… Nvm, I’ll stay happy and $$$ will come eventually de…

Smiles Always!!

I’ve lost someone that meant alot to me 2 months ago. She’s my grandmother. Having knew that she’s in very bad condition, I doesn’t seems to think that wad my mum has told me was actuallly true. On the 18 of Aug, I was suppose to go her house to visit her but just I followed my thinking. Tomolo then I’ll go see. But………. In the night of 18 aug, ard 10+pm, she was admitted to CGH. She was in semi-concious state. At that time, I realised that things are too late for me. I started my part time job at BreadTalk the next day, 19 Aug. Started work at 9am, atr ard 1pm, my dad called me. He said that my third uncle called and say that doctor examine my grandma and the answer he gave was, “She’s only left with a few days more”. At that point of time, my mind was totally in a blank. I wished all these wasn’t true. So I told Qiang-ge I gotta rush down to the hospital. Yup, I did went to visit her with my gf the next day. But was at the hospital, she’s lying on the bed with a tube inserted into her nose. At that time, I was totally stunned. She never responed to anyone, she merely lying there with her eyes close and breathing difficultly. I went to touched her, she was cold. The smile that was always on her face has gone.

Planned to stay till overnight in the hospital. But at 9.25pm, grandma suddenly slowed down her breathing. The doctors came and checked, the answer given was, “You all gotta be prepare. She’s not going to make it through tonight”. At that time, all of my uncles, aunties, cousins, nephews and nieces, in a total of 50+60 people was by her bedside. And true enough, at 9.37pm, grandma’s breathing stopped. The screen showing her heartbeat rate also went into straight line. All of us knew that she has left. At that point, everything around me seems to change. Someone close to me had gone. Y? Why this is the true? Why can’t I see you in person when you still can laugh and joke and talk to me? My heart was totally broken. I can’t find another grandmother to replace her. :’( 

All of us took turns to give her our blessings and the doctor came to pronounce her death. Then, she was wheeled to a room where a monk chanted to give my grandmother a good jorney. We were all present too, chanting together. Just before she’s being move to a van to go for her make up, all of us gave her our blessings again and soon, grandma was moved to the van and gone for her make up.

All of us went home and get prepare for the wake the next day.

Throughout the night, memories of the past flashed back. It’s the memories of my grandmother. I really regret. Till now, even going to be 100 days, I still have the regret in my heart.

阿嬷，我很想念你！

People living in this world should know how to treasure either things or people especially those that you loved very much.